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Friday, October 31

Agrrhh..Three more days... to O level.. Actually plan to stay up till 3a.m. yesterday but~~ hehe.. we went to town after school and Ehem.. Ehem fer quite long.. Around 3 to 4 hr.. hahah.. my "Ehem"means shopping and laze around.. =P then we settle down in one foodcourt which is absolutely clean and was like no ppl.. ermm.. i forgot wheres tt place.. is jus near p.s. there.. haha so we study there.. peaceful u know.. food oso not bad.. hahah ok ok i stop my nonsense.. ya too tired to stay up yesterday and study.. today another whole day.. i must treasure it .. Gd-dAy tO yOu..

Aerosmith - I Don't Want To Miss A Thing

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Wednesday, October 29

Charmed!!! Now!!

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Tuesday, October 28

Ooops =P haha.. i finally change the song.. haha you see, so clever.. =X
"Angel" by Amanda Perez =0)
Agrrh... did u guys watch the channel 5 now?? its so.. Eheeww.. God!! the mother's boyfriend rape the small little gal.. Nothin to say.. Guys? Haiz.. ok ok.. lolx.. not all guys, i know...

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Monday, October 27

I am Lost.

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What it means to be poor..

One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people can be. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.

On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked. "Oh Yeah" said the son. "So what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.

The son answered, "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.

We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."

With this the boy's father was speechless. Then his son added, "Thanks dad for showing me how poor we are."

Too many times we forget what we have and concentrate on what we don't have. What is one person's worthless object is another's prize possession. It is all based on one's perspective. Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for all the bounty we have, instead of worrying about wanting more. Take joy in all you have, especially your friends.

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Friday, October 24

Hey ppl.. How do you do? Quite some time didnt update my blog le.. was busy studying you see.. hahah =X Woah... Today got three of my friend de B'day... Happie Birthday to u guys.. (Hyder, jia quan and Konchok) tml suhailah b'day as well.. she quite sad tt no one will be at home tml wif her.. how wish i could celebrate wif her.. but i cant..
haiyo.. was waiting fer my mum now.. i should be out 30 mins ago.. BUT my mum still hold on to the phone.. tok and tok and tok wif my grandma..Ooops.. Finally gtg.. buyez.. Sorry fer my unneccessary talking.. =P

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Monday, October 20

Hey.. gd the morning.. Haha.. i guess most ppl are sick and tired with this song link to my blog rite.. hahah bear wif it lah.. i like it wat.. hahha..Plus i don know how to make other song to link to it.. =P haha.. Anyway this song de name is "That's when i love you" by "Aslyn".. hehhe

Going to tution again later... hmm.. i can see that alot of ppl are helpin us.. like.. my tution teacher, Mrs Koh, Ms liem, Mr ramesh and many many more.. but still got most of us was like still slacking.. *slappin myself*!!! Wake up!! =P Jia you ba!! *tinkz* Enlighten by Angel.. haha

Hey.. share with you something.. hahah can u tell mi whats your favourite instrument?? most ppl will say guitar, piano.. etc.. But few ppl will realise tt there is still a magical instrument named as "Saxophone"!! Totally laborious to play tt... hahha.. but i love the music comin out from tt piece of thingy.. kekek.. Worth to buy the CD ya know.. *Advertising again!!* =P "The Definitive SAX Collection"

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Sunday, October 19

Watever shit lah.. the greatest pain is when u kena betrayed.. Bitches in schools make mi sick.. Ridiculous comments and remarks... Anyway this really really spoil my mood.. bloody shit.. ok Forget abt tt..
Was fliping throuh the Year book.. A sudden feeling of "se bu de" Although always see those *bad ppl* in school.. but at least we were frenz when we first met.. i don wish to haf any enemy.. hahah but u forced mi too.. Actually i don consider u guys as one(bad ppl).. In my heart u guys r still my frenz.. jus pls don Gossips can le.. i really cant take it..=X heheh.. no offence.. no lah... And yeah.. reallie don feel like leaving the school.. But jus wish to get out of those books.. miss my frenz and teachers (some)..

ok.. keke.. u know wat.. hahah .. Firstly i need to thankz Xiaowei.. u r always my saviour when come to NC-16 movie... haha.. hu call my mother born mi out in the late december.. then Aku cannot watch NC-16 show.. hahah... then i borrowed from xiaowei de E-zlink card.. and tt show..*Underworld*.. Awesome.. i memorised her i/c and birthdate le.. haha.. Xiaowei.. Don sue mi ok.. :P

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Saturday, October 18

The Greatest Pain in Life

The greatest pain in life
Is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to
lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.
Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored...
as you have done to others.

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Monday, October 13

ik ben harstikke blij vandaag ... happie!! haha.. bought a gown yesterday again.. haha.. ok the most happiest thing is tt.. my best fren's partner is so damn cool... wahahah.. i will not say a word abt tt le.. hahah... ppl will get mad/ jealous or watever.. but i don care.. hahah i m damn happy fer them..Wat a perfect couple.. keke...Now concentratin on studies.. kekke then u help mi decide which one to wear.. hahah..the 2nd one ba.. hahah... =X

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One day, a professor was conducting a study at sea. He went
out to sea in a 'sampan' with an oarsman. The oarsman job is
to row the 'sampan'. The oarsman was an old and quiet man.

This was fine with the professor as he did not want any
disturbance while he did his work.

For many hours, the professor examined water specimens from the
sea and wrote down notes in his book. The oarsman looked up to
the sky and thought to himself, " Hmm??it looks like it's going to

Finally, when the professor had completed his work, he said,
"Okay, let's get back to the shore". Only during the journey
back did the professor speak to the oarsman.

"How long have you been rowing boats?" asked the professor.

"Almost all my life", replied the oarsman.

"Your whole life? So you don't know anything else besides
rowing boats?" asked the professor.

The oarsman just shook his head from side to side.

"Do you know geography?" asked the professor. The oarsman
shook his head quietly.

"In that case, you have lost 25 percent of your life,"said
the professor.

"Do you know biology?" The oarsman shook his head.
"You poor soul. You have lost 50 percent of your life. Do you
know physics?" Again, the oarsman simply shook his head.

"How pitiful, you have lost 75 percent of your life then, you
are so unfortunate, you don't know anything.

You have wasted your whole life just rowing boats," said the
professor arrogantly. The oarsman just kept quiet.

A few minutes later, it started to rain. Suddenly a huge wave
swept the 'sampan' and overturned it.

The professor and the oarsman were thrown into the sea.

Now, the oarsman asked the professor, "By the way, do you
know how to swim?". The professor shook his head.

"In that case, you have lost 100 percent of your life!!,"
cried the oarsman as he swam to the shore.


The moral of this story is:
It is no use having a high I.Q. or intelligence, if you do
not know the more important things in life.
Someone may seem stupid in something that has nothing to do
with his career or life. But he is a master in his line of work.
So, do not look down on others just because
they seem ignorant or stupid, because they may in fact
be more successful than us.

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Friday, October 10

Listen For Love

There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person,or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words "I love you." So we try to communicate the idea in other words.

We say 'take care' or 'don't drive too fast' or 'be good.' But really, these are just other ways of saying 'I love you,' 'you are important to me,' 'I care what happens to you,' 'I don't want you to get hurt.'

We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say.And yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. And many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted.

Therefore, we have to LISTEN FOR LOVE in the words that people are saying to us. Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments which are expressed insincerely.

An impulsive hug says I LOVE YOU even though the words might be saying very different.

Any expression of a person's concern for another says I love you.Sometimes the expression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel. Sometimes we must look and listen very intently for the love that contains.But it is often there, beneath the surface.

A mother may nag her son constantly about his grades or cleaning his room. The son may hear only the nagging, but if he listens carefully,he will hear the love underneath the nagging. His mother wants him to do well, to be successful. Which mother does not want her son to be successful in life?

What i wanna tell you guys is something very simple. Remember: Listen, and i really do mean listen, to what people say without passing the judgement on them by your own yardstick. Give them a chance. People say that beauty is in
the eye of the beholder. So is advice. How you want to interpret it is all up to you.

"Impression is a matter of interpretation"

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Thursday, October 9

Worth thinking Story!!

This is a story about a soldier who returned home from Vietnam War.

He phoned his parents once he arrived in San Francisco.

Mom, Dad. I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend

I'd like to bring home with me."

Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know", the son continued,

"He was hurt pretty bad in the war.

He stepped on a land mine and lost an arm and a leg. He has no where to
go, and I want him to come and live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son.

Maybe we can find somewhere for him."

"No! Mom, Dad, I want him to live with us.""Son," said the father, "you
don't know what you're asking.

Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us.

We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this

interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget

about this guy.He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing

more from him.

A few days later, they received a call from the San Francisco police.

Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told.

The police believed it was suicide.

The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the

city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him,

but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know,
their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story, like many of us, find it easy to love those
who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who
inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay
away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are.
Thankfully, there is someone won't treat us in that way.

Someone who loves us with an unconditional love. There's a miracle
called Friendship.

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Tuesday, October 7

Dear Friends,

Please take some time to read this "Most Important Part of the Body"

My mother used to ask me what is the most important
part of the body. Through the years I would take a
guess at what I thought was the correct answer. When
I was younger, I thought sound was very important to
us as humans, so I said, "My ears, Mommy."
She said, "No. Many people are deaf. But you keep
thinking about it and I will ask you again soon."

Several years passed before she asked me again.
Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated
the correct answer. So this time I told her,
"Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so
it must be our eyes."
She looked at me and told me, "You are learning fast,
but the answer is not correct because there are many
people who are blind."

Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge and
over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times
and always her answer was, "No. But you are ge! tting
smarter every year, my child."

Then last year, my grandpa died. Everybody was hurt.
Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember
that especially because it was only the second time I
saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn
to say our final good-bye to Grandpa. She asked me,
"Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?"

I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was
a game
between her and me. She saw the confusion on my face and told me,
question is very important. But today is the day you need to learn
important lesson."

She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up
tears. She said, "My dear, the most important body part is your

I asked, "Is it because it holds up my head?"
She replied, "No, it is because it can hold the head of
a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs
a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only
hope that you have enough love and friends that you will
always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it."

Then and there I knew the most important body part is not
a selfish one. It is sympathetic to the pain of others.

People will forget what you said...People will forget what you did
But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel.

Understand?? =)

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Monday, October 6

i jus don believe in shouting or saying out loud in word... cos i don know how to express myself.. when someone insult mi or watsoever.. i will keep it to myself and tell myself to forget it.. but when i see my fren kena all the stupid comments which is reapeatin over and over again.. WHICH Means ITS NOT THE FIRST TIME!!! u guys watch out!!!
AGrrrhh!! i finally let all my words out here!!!!!!!!!

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4A5 Sux!!! today let mi c all the true faces.. All of them only know how to suck cock.. bully those helpless...Asshole!!! Piece of shit... Wat kind of fren r u!!! Fuck off man!!! Hey// Listen up... Don act gd in front of mi.. k!! If u did anything tt betray my fren or watever.. Watch out.. u deserved something tt u nv think of.. Use ur mouth wisely.. don TOK RUBBISH!!! ppl nv study u all say we wastin our time.. now study say act guai!! then when we not wif my fren.. insult and say all shit at my fren.. she cant do anything.. if she fight back.. ppl will think shes wrong so wat fer.. Wat wrong wif u guys.... Olevel coming.. still gather around tok cock.... Study lah... Stupid asshole! Agrrrhh sorry fer all the stupid stuff.. this is not fer u to c.. fer mi to any how type.. but all this is true.. So Spend ur time wisely... Don GOSSIP... gOssip fer wat.. i rather use the time think of my future... Watever.. FUCK OFF.... u bloodly shit... tok bad behind ur gd fren.. Wahliao.. i first time c this kind of fren!!! Pain in my neck.............those ppl we helped before.. and now wat we get back..

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Thursday, October 2

Hey ppl.. Got back some of my prelims result.. Oh God.. jus manage to pass one subject.. haha.. no lah.. not yet get back all the subject.. but hahha... sure no hope one.. =P

And today,I've start my intensive revision le.. After had a chat wif Ms liem in the morning.. I reallie feel tt i slack damn lot and will regret soOn.. therefore i take her advice.. train myself wif three words in my head.. Diligent, Determination and be Disciplined!!! Woohoo.. and i get started wif Ivy right away after our school today.. meet up at Burger king.. @ at 3.30.. Studied fer 3 hr ++.. Although we r like super tired.. but we wan to be trained fer this whole month and get ready fer our O level which concern abt our future... =) Will Discipline myself not to gif myself any excuses to go to the kitchen or anywhere or haf any break tt is unnecessary.. Yes.. i haf set my mind...

Went home after the study in Bk.. did some POA Qns at home. was Struggling.. Hmm and yeah.. will not be able to update my blog le.. maybe after my o level or once a week during this period of time... =) Wish mi gdluck.. and everyone else hu r havin difficulty wif anything!! All the best.. Don let ur frenz hu helped u and ur parents down.. or even Show those ppl hu look down on u tt u can and u r not a loser or watever lah.. kekek.. Ciaoz!

Kelly Chen - Lover's Concerto

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